.:CID:.

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 29 Jul 2002 16:23:31 GMT

I wanna get everyone together and go out for thai food or something as a family :P I think it would be nice to go out for a yummy dinner, we should make plans. i work all this week except for sunday night and sat(but i dont think i'll be coherant :P) but we should all work things out. YUMMMY THAI :PP

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 29 Jul 2002 16:18:46 GMT

Well its finally over, all the hardwork has finally paid off and our show was rather successful. I heard rumour of indy film makers in the audience looking for young actors whoop:) Im really happy everyone who i hoped would come out, got a chance to, thanks for the support and such Im really glad it finally got done :)
Anyhow Not much goin on now, back to work, maybe a little partying. I plan on quitting my job next week so that gives me the last 2 weeks of summer before i go back to school. Hopefully i'll get some play time in there and see some ppl, so you guys dont think im a jerk :P
I LOVE YOU

Well thats it for now, sorry for the sporadic, long posts. :) peace friends

paint paint everywhere but not a drop to drink

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 08 Jul 2002 19:13:17 GMT

So, Hi guys, long time no post, or chat, or anything for that matter. You all must know I am extremely busy these days, and i feel like an ass for not having enough time for everyone and everything. Play rehearsals have been running the exact opposite times i dont have to work and this has gone on for like a month now, ts really getting me frustrated. However by the end of the month it will be all worth it, i have the show times here for you please tell everyone to come, its gonna be a blast, I hope you like it:)

Criminal Genius
by George F Walker

Venue 10 chinese cultural center

sunday, july 21 8:00pm
monday, july 22 3:45pm
tuesday, july 23 9:45pm
wednesday, july 24 4:00pm
thursday, july 25 7:45pm
saturday, july 27 12:00noon
sunday, july 28 5:45pm
Tickets 8 bux

So in other news, ive been writing more, not music, but poems, short stories etc. Im hoping to be creative, as i have a wonderful yummy partner who inspires me to be creative. WE have soo many ideas for clothes and for furniture, and for other great things, its totally rewarding. It really amazing when you come to the realization that we alll have soooo much potential for success in anything we do, 90% of the battle is getting off your ass an doin it:) (this has been a heartfelt moment brought up, and now on the floor, by yours truly:P)
Anyways have a good time doin what you do and keep it real hopefully i will try and post more as time allows.
Peace

i would die for peanut butter...

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 10 Jun 2002 17:38:17 GMT

Well Hello everyone, its been quite some time since my last post, as maybe some of you have noticed...maybe not :) Anyhow im glad things are goin great as far as finally getting of our asses and planning camping things this year its super good compared to our one adventure to nomans land in the scary ontario wilderness /me fears the generator.
My hand is doin well now, ths sitches look pretty fly and tis gonna leave a hell of a scar which i will be glad to show off :) /me still chuckles at the events of friday.
All this play shit that needs to be done now is stressing me out, but im sure its for the best, and it seems that like everyone is coming out which is good but kinda adds to the stress hehe oh well :)
Lastly me and yum went to the wasabi at home store on osborne on a whim and oooh'd and awww'd at all the wonderfully asian things, in an instant we were off miso paste, tofu, radish sprouts, seaweed, and green tea in hand. The idea for miso soup led to this asian canadian feast later on at my house which included curried shrimp in rice noodles, sweet and sour chicken balls, and corn along with our yummy miso soup, all homemade mmmmmm. anyways as tara suggested i suggest (as well) you check it out

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 20 May 2002 19:21:14 GMT

havnt posted in a while... thought i should... comments welcome...

cidflux@home.com — Sat, 11 May 2002 18:27:34 GMT

Last night was fun, we went to the southdale fair *cheers*. I feel soo old there were all of these little prepubescents running about with their friends, and like cigarettes they stole from mommy and daddy some of them were really cool. I went with sean and chantal and of course my yum . There was this creepy carny talkin about weather he was pretty odd lookin... for a carny...and i didnt really understand him but i wanted to be polite soo i was like "yeah weather" and turned around quickly.
We then went and retrieved some provisions from a nearby food wagon "food" rather.
There was this other guy too and he kept makin loud noises "BOW WHOOP" to get our attention, we figured it was cuz he wanted to announce something, he apprently had this need for announcing, but there was noone there for him. "BOW BOW WHOOP HOLLER" he was quite the fella.
Anyways tonight is dereks gheytogether soo im sure i will see you tonight. if work doesnt destroy me

today...

cidflux@home.com — Tue, 07 May 2002 19:49:42 GMT

Its been a while since I posted, thought id get everyone up to date.

Well life is smashing, I think im happier now then i have been in the last 3 yrs AT LEAST, im madly in love with my girl Melissa . *sigh* :P I now drink my coffee black and plenty of it:) /me sips.
THe 2 job thing is kinda gettin to me, but i think i can manage till my manager gets off holidays then i think imma quit uberghey. But heres the dilemma I can work my ass off full time at muddy waters for a dollar less than superstore and sign away my summer till like august (when i will prolly get them to cut my hours of quit all together) or like work 16 hours a week for a dollar more at a mindless easy ass job makin muffins. I dont wanna quit muddy cuz it kinda shows defeat, and im not really cool wit that, plus as some of you know I LOVE TO COOK and am sorta planning on making something of it in the future ie. restaurant/coffee shop thingy, or being a certified chef with my own cooking show on the food network, slotted right before iron chef :P BUT ANYWAYS
Im kinda gettin into learning html and stuffs from this website that derek showed us, its really informative, im catching on i think:)
I just cant wait till summer and like fun and yay will happen, i cant wait to go camping and be out under the stars with my guitar and my friends and yah... yum
but this is me for now soo have a good day guys and such :) peas

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 06 May 2002 16:10:55 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHGHEY DEREK :)

cidflux@home.com — Sun, 28 Apr 2002 06:32:24 GMT

we're both fucked up on e. ryan is rolling a joint. we told each other that we love each other, but yo, it isn't the druqks! =)) Ryan officially has me and I officially have him.

We're so cute it hurts.

Y4wN

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 15 Apr 2002 16:09:16 GMT

Last night was good and relaxing, cept for my stupidity in taking melissa out to the floodway. What was intended to be a relaxing evening lookin at the night sky, turned out to be a rather unrelaxing mudbath. Forgetting that perhaps the floodway in april might be a little soggy (there was snow like how many days ago hehe /me smax himself inna head :P)I managed to get her car stuck, but it was aight cuz we ended up using our noggins and a little elbow grease and managed to free ourselves from the swamp. The whole ordeal is rather comical:P But it was quite wonderful to come home for coffee and sammiches.
We made chocolates yesterday, apprently there pretty good, though i havnt tried any yet, so if anyone wants to give em a try lemme know.
Today is double work day soo from superstore i go directly to muddy, i dont hate the resaturant, in fact its a wonderful and fun atmosphere to work in ( i dont see it being busy today) but i dont like the social strains it puts on my life being soo busy. Anyhow i gotsta get ready, so peace and love to you.

cidflux@home.com — Sat, 13 Apr 2002 15:14:05 GMT

I got called into work today sposed to start at 1200, goin in at 1030 soo i can be outta there earlier. I should be off by like 230 latest.

SMRT

cidflux@home.com — Fri, 12 Apr 2002 15:39:21 GMT

So yah good ole brain, good ole lack of the facts, kids! my exam starts at 1:30pm not 10:00 am as i originally thought, which is a direct conflict with my work schedule, since i cant go in after work cuz i hafta work :P Way to go brain cells, ah well i left a msg with the good folks at the real canadian superghey, hopefully they wont be too mad, but in all honesty i dont really care all that much :) So yah i will be seeing yall later and now at least i have some time to study (so i sit here on lj) Peace again *mwa*

(:)(:)(:)(:)

cidflux@home.com — Fri, 12 Apr 2002 14:12:42 GMT

So ummm yeah, 9am, exam in an hour, this is me studying away :P
Enjoy your sleeps friends (though i know a lot of you will be lacking a little today)
See some of you tonight, dont know what time im off, im sure things will work out.
Oh yah, tax return 1500 can you say dinner for everyone :P
Peace friends my thoughts of you will make the day less painful.
yeah... ummm... (insert appropriate filler here)

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 08 Apr 2002 06:56:20 GMT

Tonight was good, caught a super slick flick called the Princess and the Warrior with Melissa, it was really good, with the chick from run lola run in it. It was a german film with subtitles ROCK ON!!! :P But yah the rest of the evening was awesome too. Officially happy bday Melissa yay for 20 whoop!
This week is gonna suck ass, I start my new job this week and i have 8 shifts including my old job. I have 2 exams i havnt even thought about. BUT sarah is coming in an i do look forward to seeing her as im sure we all are.
Anyhow its late and im sore and tired from shitty sleeps lately, tonight will be different i think im finally tired enough to get some decent ZzZzZzZz's
peace friends.

cidflux@home.com — Sun, 07 Apr 2002 12:38:22 GMT

wait a minute... i think its coming to me... oh... nevermind!

cidflux@home.com — Sat, 06 Apr 2002 04:41:34 GMT

Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?

cidflux@home.com — Thu, 04 Apr 2002 16:38:33 GMT

Having said that, I have gone and come back and the interview went pretty decently, i would be working as a line cook at the muddy waters smokehouse. My parents are getting me a bike soo i will have means of transportation, soo basically my summer looks like a whole lot of biking and working, hassah, as i full intend on staying on at superstore. However nothing is etched in stone, so im not making any definites right now. As for the other part of my earlier post, i have given my silly brain much thought, and have come to some common ground and acceptance of things. In fact i now see how things might actually work out quite nicely. well talk will occur soon again i hope *wink* anyways im still fuggin tired an such but at least now i can sorta sit back and take it all as it comes. peaz frents

cidflux@home.com — Thu, 04 Apr 2002 14:58:33 GMT

Well here I sit, 9am tired as hell, I dint really get much sleep last night, my thoughts were filled with a scene over and over. I tossed and turned and now totally unprepared mentally, i will go for my interview. To me for some reason it means little, as most things will prolly seem today. I prolly shouldnt be this bothered, but I really cant help it. OH well! anyways have a nice day friends *yawn* i will try to make the most of mine, adieu.

ARE YOU OKAY, BUSTER WOLFE

cidflux@home.com — Wed, 03 Apr 2002 06:23:11 GMT

today was quite productive and made me feel a lot better than i did yesterday. IT seems as though all of us uber-friends go through these waves of feeling ick all at the same time, though i seem to be in sequence more with our feminen companions, hrm a thought to ponder. I finished a book, i never read, ive decided to change that, i like this decision alot. My scene with my scene partner no longer suckz, in fact im quite confident we may actually do well, yay!!! Ummm derek go new obsession's... err games which we promplty removed from outer casings and explored voraciously. MMMMMMMM im really liking the idea of Virtua Fighter 4 *drool* soo fun and we still have soo much to learn, and ICO which is visually amazing. Tomorrow is a long day, and i bid you adieu, take heed and stay upon the not so beaten path, as looks can be decieving... head up!

Starving

cidflux@home.com — Tue, 02 Apr 2002 07:52:34 GMT

my original journal was 10 times as long as this but i will leave you tiwth the message i originally wanted to portray, as originally it was quite bitter and may have been interpreted incorrectly, so here iw what i learnd from my writing's.

Feed yourself, stop denying anything, hold it all sacred but get it all out, even if it makes little to no sense, even if your opinions are wrong or biased or one sided, whatever. Do it! say it! the time to hesitate is through. I laugh, and I will go on laughing, cuz seriously, why the fuck cry when you might not know you have only 10 minutes left? before your know it planet earth C:\format

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cidflux@home.com — Mon, 01 Apr 2002 18:38:12 GMT

Last night was some good times, we went as saw resident evil which was fantabuler since it was so to the actual video game. There were some very nice scares thats for sure, my favorite being the one with the girl in the water, you expect something to happen *queue music* and you know its coming *akward long wait* then BANG, im practically touching the ceiling. I like getting scared and only momentarily considered something horrible happening to me in my bedroom last night (it being in the basement).
After we all went (minus derek for work reasons) to perkins and had a good time. Im glad Shane and Ken are back safely from their trip, as we all found out they had a pretty expnsive time running from the law and such ;P, mmmmm unlimited iced tea beverage. Saw heather menheer a friend from the days, havnt seen her in such a long time, thought she had just fallen off the world. Shes doing well and asked about derek I informed her that he is alive and such. After all was said and done I drove melissa home which was good cuz it gave me an opporunity for some quality one on one, all i gotsta say is "JOY", shes super awesome to talk to and get to know since there seems to be an endless array of things i find in common, lets hear it for intersting females, its about friggen time (no offence female friends you are not included in the mundane female category either). Anyhow this is me before work and I hafta go now soo I will talk to yall latah, peace and carrotss.

cidflux@home.com — Mon, 01 Apr 2002 18:20:58 GMT

What is your meaning of life?

eeepster

cidflux@home.com — Sun, 31 Mar 2002 19:22:17 GMT

I totally feel like an ass for not mentioning the wonderful person that jay is, as he is also a new friend. Sorry dood :P I got caught on this train of thought yesterday and was drunk, but you have not slipped my mind. You too are an awesome individual whom i look forward to hanging out with more.
So here i sit, slightly hungover from last night, satisfied with drinking for another week at least :P prolly more though. Waiting for the weather to subside my brain is suffocating from this winter prison. I need the warm sun and the green grass to uplift my spirits. Soonly i tell myself, soonly.
Nothing profound for today, 9 days till sarah time whoop:P

wow

cidflux@home.com — Sun, 31 Mar 2002 10:50:20 GMT

just when i think ive met everyone that could possibly make me smile, i go and meet a girl that epitimizes everything i hold dear. Thank you sooo much chantal for introducing me and us to a wonderful individual that i can see myself loving getting to know, mellisa, you are truly an amazing person. Maybe its the way her mouth moved to all my favorite NIN songs or maybe its her sheer awesomeness but WOW, there hasnt been a girl like this around for some time now that can actually relate to the things derek and i hold dear (in regards to music anyhow). I sit on the edge of my chair waiting for the next time i can see you :)
I had a great time tonight and im fairly intozicated but I did make it home in one piece as you have already assume from my posting. I hope that chantal enjoyed her song that she wrote without even knowing it, as it is now my faovrite song i have written yet. I love my friends theres no doubt about it, i dont know what has happened since DRIVE, but for some reason it seems like we all took a little break and now were bak with a vengence. seriously guys its not the southern comfort i am now sipping talking, i couldnt imagine a better group of individuals, you are all soo special to me, and maybe you dont hear it enough, love you guys :))))
tomorrows gonna suck i think its gonna be one of those hangover days, oh well iots totally worth it.
LOVE

ahem

cidflux@home.com — Sat, 30 Mar 2002 01:58:36 GMT

Why is it that quitting smoking is soo easy compared to the extranuous (sp) task of finding a "someone"? maybe not for all, but for us unmotivated types with little self assurness it seems like kicking a heroine addiction would be a walk in the park!
well thats all i really hafta say about that, like this isnt a cry for help, or like an invitation or anything, just something ive been thinking about, sorta laughing about. Maybe i know the answers but im just too lazy of stubborn, but maybe im scared who knows, were all a little lonely some of the time i suppose, just seems like that some of the time has become most of the time.
Spring is in the air i suppose and you know what that means. Peace my children, Head up!
OH and i found my keys soo no worries on that front, yay for stupid pants, they were where chantals car was parked in the snow.